New Site.

I fucked the other one up, lol.

Here was last night's entry:

My head is fucked up right now.

I can't think at all. I only have one thing on my mind and I'm so jealous it's unhealthy. What the hell has happened to me? I don't even know who I am anymore. The way I act is rediculous..nobody should act like I do..and the way I think is worse. My thoughts alone are weighing down on me, and my shitty decisions are finally catching up with me. I've tryed to pin the blame on anybody but myself, but I can't. I've tryed to just forget, and I can't. I can't talk my way out of this one, I'm stuck..and I've been stuck since the middle of summer. I can't help but appreciate who I was then more than who I am today. My hopes have been too high for the past month or whatever..and I've watched myself change into someone I don't recognize when I look in the mirror.

Nothing is the same.

Even when I look at you it's not the same. You're different, I'm different. The thoughts that run through my head are different. The words on the tip of my tongue are different. I hesitate. I hold back. And I regret it.

Mentally, I'm exhausted. I want to end this bullshit mess I've put myself in, and I will. Waking up like this every morning isn't worth it. I'm unimportant, and it bothers the fucking hell out of me. I set myself up everytime, I really do.

Regardless,

I mean it when I say I'm done giving a fuck. Caring too much only leaves more room for hurt and disappointment. This is a constant headache.

I miss the way things were.

It's storming..

My eyes are getting heavy.

My bed looks promising.

<3Nn

My head is fucked up right now.

I can't think at all. I only have one thing on my mind and I'm so jealous it's unhealthy. What the hell has happened to me? I don't even know who I am anymore. The way I act is rediculous..nobody should act like I do..and the way I think is worse. My thoughts alone are weighing down on me, and my shitty decisions are finally catching up with me. I've tryed to pin the blame on anybody but myself, but I can't. I've tryed to just forget, and I can't. I can't talk my way out of this one, I'm stuck..and I've been stuck since the middle of summer. I can't help but appreciate who I was then more than who I am today. My hopes have been too high for the past month or whatever..and I've watched myself change into someone I don't recognize when I look in the mirror.

Nothing is the same.

Even when I look at you it's not the same. You're different, I'm different. The thoughts that run through my head are different. The words on the tip of my tongue are different. I hesitate. I hold back. And I regret it.

Mentally, I'm exhausted. I want to end this bullshit mess I've put myself in, and I will. Waking up like this every morning isn't worth it. I'm unimportant, and it bothers the fucking hell out of me. I set myself up everytime, I really do.

Regardless,

I mean it when I say I'm done giving a fuck. Caring too much only leaves more room for hurt and disappointment. This is a constant headache.

I miss the way things were.

It's storming..

My eyes are getting heavy.

My bed looks promising.

<3Nn

i'm fed up with life.

whatever.

hello world.

the beach was amazing. and this song reminds me of it.

So let me get this straight
say now you loved me all along?
what made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel
i can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
i remember so long ago, see i felt that same way
now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
insignificantly enough we both have significant others

only time will tell
time will turn and tell

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

but thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore
loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore
but i must confess you're so much more then i remember
can't help but entertain these thoughts
thoughts of us together

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

my day late friend

so let me get this straight
all these years and you were no where to be found
and now you want me for your own
but you're a day late and my love, she's still renowned
we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

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FUCK YOU!